I am honored to be with you today for your commencement from one of the
finest universities in the world. Truth be told, I never graduated from college.
This is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today, I want to
tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.
The first story is about connecting the dots.
I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed
around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did
I drop out?
It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college
graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very
strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates. So, everything was all
set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I
popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So, my
parents who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night
asking, "We got an unexpected baby boy. Do you want him?" They said, "Of
course." My biological mother found out later that my mother had never graduated
from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She
refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later
when my parents promised that I would go to college. This is the start in my
life.
And 17 years later, I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that
was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents'
savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see
the value on it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how
college was going to help me figure it out. And here, I was spending all of the
money my parents had saved their entire life. So, I decided to drop out and trust
that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back
it was one of the best decisions I have ever made. The minute I dropped out, I
could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin
dropping in on the ones that looked far more interesting.
It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room. So, I slept on the floor in
friends' rooms. I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with. And,
I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal
a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And, much of what I stumbled into
by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let
me give you one example.
Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in
the country. Throughout the campus, every poster, every label on every drawer,
was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to
take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to
do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount
of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great
typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way
that science can't capture. And I found it fascinating.
None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten
years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came
back to me. And, we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with
beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in
college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally
spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, it's likely that no
personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have
never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not
have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course, it was impossible to
connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very
clear looking backwards ten years later.
Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward. You can only connect them
looking backwards. So, you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in
your future. You have to trust in something, your gut, destiny, wife, karma,
whatever. Because believing the dots are connected down the road, we give you
the confidence for whole your heart even if you lead you off the will in the
past. And, that will make all the difference.
My second story is about love and loss.
I was lucky. I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started
Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple
had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a 2 billion dollar company with
over 4,000 employees. We had just released our finest creation, the Macintosh,
a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get
fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew, we hired someone who I
thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or
so, things went well. But then, our visions of the future began to diverge and
eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our
board of directors sided with him. So at 30, I was out. And, very publicly out.
What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.
I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the
previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it
was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to
apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even
thought about running away from the valley. But, something slowly began to dawn
on me. I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed
that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so, I decided to
start over.
I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the
best thing that could have ever happened to me.
The heaviness of being
successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure
about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my
life.
During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company
named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife.
Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy
Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a
remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the
technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance.
And, Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.
I'm pretty sure, none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from
Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it.
Sometimes, life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm
convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did.
You've got to find what you love. And, that is as true for your work as it is for
your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only
way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And,
the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep
looking and don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you
find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the
years roll on. So, keep looking. Don't settle.
My third story is about death.
When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like, "If you live each day
as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an
impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the
mirror every morning and asked myself, "If today were the last day of my life,
would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has
been "No" for too many days in a row. I know I need to change something.
Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever
encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything,
all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure,
these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly
important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid
the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is
no reason not to follow your heart.
About a year ago, I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the
morning and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a
pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer
that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six
months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is
doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try and tell your kids everything
you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It
means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as
possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.
I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening, I had a biopsy where
they stuck an endoscope down my throat through my stomach and into my
intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I
was sedated, but my wife who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells
under a microscope, the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very
rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery.
And thankfully, I'm fine now.
This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope it's the closest I
get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you
with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual
concept.
No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die
to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever
escaped it. And that is as it should be, because death is very likely the single
best invention of life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make
way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now,
you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic,
but it is quite true.
Your time is limited. So, don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be
trapped by dogma which is living with the results of other people's thinking.
Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most
important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow
already know what you truly want to become.
Everything else is secondary.
When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth
Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a
fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to
life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal
computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors,
and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years
before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and
great notions.
Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog,
and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the
mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a
photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself
hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words, "Stay
Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay
Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you
graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.
Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.
Thank you all very much.